Needing Help....

Hello everyone!

I want to apologize before hand because my thoughts and words might be a little hard to piece together and understand, but I hope you get the message I want to portray.

I am writing today to please ask everyone who can to please pray for my father. Right now he is in the hospital and very sick recovering from something. I don't want to give a lot of details until all is said and done and maybe not even then... but it's pretty serious and he's in ICU right now. I went to see him today and he's doing better, but still has a long road ahead of him.

If you could remember him in your prayers I would really be grateful for it. I know that he's doing better which is great, but its still going to be a long time to see if anything really works and if he sticks to the strict routines. We will see...

Today as we were saying goodbye to him, he started to cry which in turn made us three girls that were there start to shed tears and choke up to. This is from a man that I don't remember crying at all while growing up. This situation that he's found himself in has really humbled him and he's being transferred to another facility tomorrow to continue his progress. I have been praying very hard for his recovery to continue and for him to stay strong and focused and know that he's loved.

My father isn't a member of the church and hasn't been for a long time, but that doesn't matter. He's my dad and I love him. I miss him and haven't been as close as I would hope to be with him or as close as I've been in the past. This was a wake up call that no matter how petty some things seem, they should never get in the way of family. Family is family no matter what happens or what choices are made. You love the person and not necessarily the person's actions or choices. My dad and I have had a hard, long history and have struggled to continue our relationship through different times and situations... but we are still together and I still truly love him with all my heart now. I hold no more resentment or anger that could have been found in little fragments at the bottom of my heart left over from the past. When I found out on Thursday that he was in the hospital since Tuesday, all that stuff that I'd been holding up inside myself really seemed insignificant and dumb. I am ashamed to say that I have harbored this anger and resentment over past things for years and have never really gotten over it. Unfortunately it took this happening to make me realize that I can't hold onto those things if I want to have the relationship that I have wished for to happen. Time is a gift... and I'm hoping to have that gift granted... praying that it will happen.

Please pray with me. I will sincerely appreciate it.